Jiayu Zhou

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Today is quite a common day; paradoxically, this very day, during which the sun furtively rise from the East and set in the night silently, is along with two things that may lead to my inscription of today to be a milestone. One thing is that I have submitted my final thesis for my degree and all the rest that I can do is just wait, wait for those academy committees to skim it in few minutes and give back some authority comments according to their own understanding about it, wait for my thesis defense that will be held days after.

It is fantastic for one to do so since in so few minutes he will have to distinguish a hundreds-year-long thesis to be either "good" or "bad". The thesis can be meticulously prepared throughout years' effort, or be rushed out before the deadline via several nights without sleep, albeit it is quite skeptical that some professors, who can only conjure, or daunt, his or her own students for co-authorships of their research papers in order to gain a promotion, can take such a demanding job without flaws.

Despite this achievement, I do have done, or bypass, another significant episode, that I finally hand in my GRE answer sheet after so many times of postponing and later cancelling. Please feel free to scorn me if you read following facts: I have registered GRE twice before and each of them is end with a "cancel" after one or more times of "defer'. However, I myself do not consider this to be despicable in my heart because I find excuses every time, from "this term I have to too many courses to be assessed" to "I will be busy for my visa in recent months".

It is only today, that can I realize the fact that I was always eschewing the chances to challenge myself and for all the time I was trying to reconcile the convoluted factors about being resolute and being timidity by compromising to the later, trying to disguise my lethal disadvantage with insolence deep behind the feeling that I have already done a lot, and that I have excellent enough. Maybe one month later the final score will turn down my exhilaration that I will soon be on the sacrosanct continent of U.S to present my paper in the highest level research conference, nonetheless, unearthly speaking, I have to say that it is first time I really choose to face challenges of my life, regard less any mundane details such as the result.

At this very moment, I promise to myself I will go on my way of heading to top schools of U.S, there will never be words like "failure" that come out from my mouth until one day God proves so. Every single day, I will still review the "Red Book" that have already possessed every dream of mine during last several months, the book that turn from an incubus at the beginning into my most loyalty friend that I will inevitable fall into insomnia without skimming it once before I get on bed. I will strive to U.S and finish my lost dream there, for only one reason, that I will conquer myself, by myself only.

By the way, I do believe that it is high time I can write something to commemorate my four-year university experiences. By word "experience" we mean an exhaustive description that describes every aspects of live. Sadly, my recollection often fails to garner details about what time exactly one incident happened, and therefore I would like to present those scattered shadow of perception in a topical structure, instead of chronological one. I will finish them topic by topic and have them published here day by day. Please be munificent to post your comments here.